I have now extracted from all the various verse variations those options that contain within their lines the most evocative expression of the poetic theme: freedom. The text does not quite resemble in its structure a poem yet—as there are many word and line variations within the verses (which I separate with slashes, for example, “skipping/slipping/sweeping/swooping”), making them appear convoluted—but the familiar traditional stanza shape will slowly emerge from the nebula in the weeks to come.
A Voice in the Void
The posts you see above summarise my experience on Facebook and Twitter, where it seems to me I have failed in my efforts to connect with like-minded individuals. Perhaps it was the reticence of the community in which I found myself, or my own uninterestingness (or even disagreeableness) that thwarted me, but the situation has brought me nolens volens here.
From Resolve to Resignation
A few months ago, I joined SubscribeStar¹, a platform enabling my followers to become, in effect, my benefactors, sponsoring my artistic endeavours through a paid subscription. Although it is primarily a crowdfunding environment, my interest in it was for moral rather than monetary support; a place where I may engage meaningfully with those who value my work.
Now, I have no delusions about my own significance, but I thought I had won at least one person with more than a cursory interest in my pursuits. In this assumption, however, I was proved spectacularly wrong; it soon became clear that the interest of my followers was purely perfunctory; not a rebuke, merely a statement of fact—one I must now wholeheartedly embrace.
A Substitute for the Senseless
Therefore, starting today, I shall invest here what I have hitherto spent on social media, turning my blog and the public timeline of SubscribeStar into social media alternatives. Between the two, the only difference shall be the additional posts for the SubscribeStar paid tiers—fancifully titled “Martins”, “Swifts” and “Swallows”—a feature I hope to bring also to the blog.
If I am to continue posting into the abyss, I may as well do so on a platform as versatile as SubscribeStar (and sans the moral cowardice of its counterparts) in addition to the blog. My first “social” post here then shall be what was the last post on social media², the most fitting timeline inauguration I can conceive, one celebrating the Overberg, the region inspiring my work.
- Forgotten Fields on SubscribeStar
- Now terminated.
I joined SubscribeStar
I am delighted to share that I have joined SubscribeStar1, a platform enabling one to support a creator through a subscription. My reasons for doing so are to create an opportunity to support what I do, and to establish a space where I may experiment with ideas. Whether on matters philosophical, sacred or secular—in the form of essays, musical and poetic sketches or photography—it shall be my studio; a creative laboratory, if you will.
The artistic process is complex; the thinking of the artist obscure. On SubscribeStar, I shall clarify my process and thinking in the company of sympathetic minds with whom I hope to deliberate. I shall treat it also as a journal wherein I may share the updates, observations and discoveries hitherto contained in the monthly digests. My goal is to create a subscription section on this website, but until then, SubscribeStar will perform that function.
I reflected upon this blog
Ever since I joined social media in 2016, I have devotedly shared there distilled ideas and updates. These I then assembled and elaborated upon on the blog, particularly over the past year, in the “This Month” posts. So consistent have I been, it has become an observance. Now that I have joined SubscribeStar, I can better investigate subjects without burdening followers with the bombardment of posts that will inevitably result from my doing so.
This then is the last “This Month” post. It does not mean, however, that I shall no longer be active here. On this blog, I intend to share at the appropriate times what emerges from SubscribeStar. I shall make official announcements and present work and ideas in their developed form—that is, not the works in progress or the extemporary rumination that will be characteristic of my SubscribeStar activity. SubscribeStar will be messy; the blog will be neat.
I wrote this, my 100th post
Glancing over the development of the blog reminds me of my enthusiasm when I started this project in 2016. Armed with an iPad and no idea how to compose experimental music, my love for airships was all the encouragement I needed to learn. I was amazed that the blog attracted any interest at all and I did my best to present to readers what I considered engaging and interesting; 100 posts later, I hope I have succeeded.
Whenever there is change, one is reminded of what one values in life. This February, I appreciated anew your faith in my work. I may give form to a theme in music and poetry, but what joy is there in beholding the outcome alone? For proof of my work’s merit, I rely on you. Your judgements—your comprehension, appreciation and criticism—help me evaluate my own; and I assure you, I would be all the poorer without them.
- Forgotten Fields on SubscribeStar